Just watchin' Irene blow through....

So sitting alone in this storm has got me thinking....how do people who don't deserve someone and treat them like crap have someone in thier lives?

I can't get over how I'm just supposed to turn off how I feel about someone in a day. I don't know how anyone does it. I can't.....I still feel. Especially when you spend so much time with someone and think that your life will now be better. BANG left behind again.

I am an easy going, loving person. Why do people throw me out like yesterdays trash? Better yet, how the hell do they all find me? Actually, I was born into it! LOL!

So hope everyone is doing good. Sussex county just has rain and hardly any wind. Every now and again a gust.

I'm sick of surviving....I want to live!

August 20, 2011-Thoughts

I should be laying out my history before adding my thoughts, but I just can't help myself!

Yesterday I took out my 72 Chevelle, washed it, cleaned it up good then took it down to my "guy" to give it a look see for reliability. After a clean bit of health and some oo's and ah's from some patrons of the petrol station, I was off.

A Brief History

So from what I remember of my younger days....they were mostly happy. But not without some issues. My mother was an alcoholic, my father, a wonderful, strong and powerful man, worked on Wall Street and worked A LOT! I don't blame him, the state my mother was in most of the time I wouldn't want to come home either!

The Late Teen early Twenties ....

So basically, during the time I was seeking my first Therapist, I also hooked up with what was to become my ex-husband. I met him when I was 18. Strangly enough, the Therapist I was seeing was telling me he was bad news and I shouldn't date him. Well, being the rebelous, know it all 18 year old I was, I knew better! (DAMMIT!)

I Guess I should begin here....

So many things to blog about....I've been told I should write a book about my life. However, I can never seem to organize my thoughts and experiences to be able to put them to paper. A friend suggested I blog...then write my book. Sounds like a plan!

I should start by saying that in my short 39 years, I've seen the absolute worst of people, but also seen the best. I've been married and divorced, had more bad relationships then most people my age, and have lost my family due to my divorce. Yeah, you heard that right! They thought I was the bad one and supported the ex. Some of my family chooses to still speak to me, they are like me I guess and can see right into peoples souls. Or simply, they know right from wrong.