So here I am typing this with my new eye balls on a 19 inch monitor with the resolution on super huge so I can see! I had my PRK done on July 26th and have been healing just fine. It will be about another 2 weeks before the discomfort, blurry vision and dryness will subside but I'm still glad I did it!
Some people had seemed to think that I did this because I didn't like the way I looked in glasses, funny, it's clear that those are the people who really don't know me! I could care less how I "look" in glasses, that had nothing to do with it. One of the main reasons I had it done is a simple quality of life issue. Imagine waking up and not seeing your clock, then needing a pair of glasses to find the glasses you need to not roll over on your dog. How about being in the shower and having to triple check if your grabbing the Shampoo or Conditioner? And another good one....you try a Jerseylicious smokey eye looking 1 inch away from the mirror! NOT EASY! Then there was the First Aid thing, if it's raining and I'm loading a patient in the Rig, I can't stop production and say to my fellow EMS'ers and Cops "wait, gotta wipe off my glasses". So I did this for many reasons, vanity was certainly not one of them!
Was invited to my first Family Reunion party on Saturday and met some of the most amazing people I've ever met in my life! I felt welcomed and no one judged me for what I drove, what I do for a living, what I was wearing......I was just Kelly with Gizmo! So not used to that. My family it was all about money, name brands, who had a better job and a better car! Well, when I was part of that I guess I didn't realize it. But looking back and now being part of people's families, I now see what the meaning of family is. It's love and respect and support. It's not making fun of someone for crying, it's hugging them and saying "I'm so sorry your going through this, I wish I could fix it, I can only love you through it!" Seems so simple right? It's not judging someone for buying something or not buying something.....god man, it really is simple!
I know that should I be lucky enough to be a mother someday, well I'll be lucky enough for one, but that I'm going to teach my child how simple love is. It's not judgmental, it's unconditional and it's always there, no matter what! It also is not always blood, it's connections with people. Guess at 40 and a half, I should really start working on that soon!
And here is a thought....did you ever feel a connection to someone that was totally unspoken but clearly there and obvious? You stand next to the person and the energy draws you to that person, and you know the other person feels it to. When you touch that person, you stop breathing....and you don't want to let go. Then you think about it and that person is someone you would never fall for in a million years because of whatever reason, lifestyle, looks, whatever.....and you know that in a million years, he's had way prettier, skinnier and younger....but you feel it. It's so unspoken, and you try and date it away....but every date you're on, you're thinking about what he's doing, where he is, and you find yourself talking to your date about him and what an amazing person he is.......opposites attract...but are we that opposite? I want someone who owns a home, has at least one car, a career and a 5 year plan. I want to take what I have and join it to someones life to enhance each others life. I guess I just want what ever one else seems to have. I have "stuff" and people say I'm lucky....yes, yes I am. I like my "stuff"...but my Father always said that having stuff is worth nothing unless you have someone to share it with. I believe that......
Connections on a higher emotional and physical level....do they exist? Or do we just want to believe they do to make us less lonely????
